Only The Paranoid SurvivesHi, I am X and I have been living with paranoia for only God knows how long. On the surface, it might look like a bad thing, and frankly, I can’t assure you that it isn’t, because you know how people have been struggling with it? I actually have become quite good at it.
I think different, eat and act differently. And just like you have been searching for the meaning and purpose to life, you’ve also been thinking about what exactly this is. This is an escape, a strange place, a place of discord, where the me, the devil and angel on my shoulders are all in agreement, a place that doesn’t exist, a place where sunrise meets sunset, a place where questions that we’ve never asked get answered, where concepts you never knew existed, let alone considered get explained and related in bizarre ways to other em… concepts
So, because this is the first of whatever this is, we’ll start with You.
Yes, You! wondering what exactly this is. You, the product of random human exploration, birthed out of serendipity, sheer luck, just like the inventions and discoveries of any great scientist, such as Isaac Newton, its nothing but a mistake, a perceived order was found from this chaotic universe we live in, and for a split second, it made sense. Think about it an apple falling from a tree? Really?. Humans, the most dominating species of all life forms on earth, The entire evolution has been driven by just one tool, Mistake.
You must have considered the term the Human Race, why we are called a Race? We don’t know where we are, or where we will end up really, or how we will get there, but our minds create a path, and tricks us into following that path. You went down that road, you began to realise that maybe this isn’t what You wanted. So the quest to find true happiness begins, but You made a mistake, you tied happiness to success and success means You must accomplish a set of tasks, or overcome some feat, no matter how difficult or overwhelming it seems, soon, You becomes an objective-driven person, finding happiness from all he overcame unaware of the infinite loop that has been brought into existence – a new mistake, but soon You realise that there is cycle, and that every time You accomplish a task and inch closer to freedom, You would just set another goal that doesn’t lead to freedom, because freedom isn’t a thing You want, You can’t bear to be irrelevant in this world. so now You, has to change ideology.
“It's not about the task, or anything really, it's just to have enough to make a living, all these activities are to make a little money to live on.”
A new reality has been created for You, by You. Soon You realize what has been done, a false reality slightly similar to what already exists, something you never wanted to be a part of.
Conclusion? You have become the very thing You fought against. Because You spiralled down until You only did things to make ends meet. So I asked You a question. “What happens when the ends You tried to make meet, meets a dead end? Would you start all over again? Or will You just man up and face your biggest fear, becoming irrelevant?.”
I think I forgot to mention that You is a person I met recently, an Asian. I think I might have misspelt Hu as You. Or mistook Hu for You. Either way, I am sure You can relate.